If I Can Be an Example of Getting Sober Then I Can Be an Example of Starting Over.

I have stared at this computer screen for two hours now and I can't find the words to say what I need to, but I found a song that could. So here it is.

Starting Over- Macklemore

In a while the trust that I once built ’s been betrayed
But I’d rather live telling the truth than be judged for my mistakes
Them falsely held up, gave em props loved then praise
I guess I gotta get this on the page

Feeling sick and helpless, lost the compass where self is
I know what I gotta do and I can’t help it
One day at a time is what they tell us
Now I gotta find a way to tell them
God help ‘em
One day at a time is what they tell us
Now I gotta find a way to tell them

We fell so hard
Now we gotta get back what we lost.. 
I felt you’d go
But you were with me all along.. 

And every kid that came up to me
And said I was the music they listened to when they first got clean
Now look at me, a couple days sober
I’m fighting demons
Back of that meeting on the east side 
Shaking tweaking, hope that they don’t see it
Hope that no one is looking
That no one recognizes that failure under that hoodie
Was posted in the back with my hands crossed shooken
If they call on me I’m passing, if they talk to me I’m booking out that door
But before I can make it somebody stops me and says are you Macklemore?
Maybe this isn’t the place or time
I just wanted to say that if it wasn’t for Otherside I wouldn’t have made it
I just look down at the ground and say thank you
She tells me she has 9 months and that she’s so grateful
Tears in her eyes, looking like she’s gonna cry.. 
I barely got 48 hours, treated like I’m some wise monk
I wanna tell her I relapsed but I can’t
I just shake her hand and tell her congrats
Get back to my car and I think I’m tripping yeah
Cuz God wrote Otherside, that pen was in my hand
I’m just a flawed man, man I eff'd up
Like so many others I just never thought I would
I never thought I would, didn’t pick up the book
Doin’ it by myself, didn’t turn out that good

If I can be an example of getting sober
Then I can be an example of starting over
If I can be an example of getting sober
Then I can be an example of starting over

We fell so hard
Now we gotta get back what we lost.. lost..
I felt you’d go
But you were with me all along.. along..

Baby Steps is what I am telling myself today. So I will tell you the same.

XOXO
katelyn